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[ things don't get better.

cyno hoped, believed, for two long months that things would look up, but it feels instead as if things between them have only worsened. cyno is patient, gentle, he sleeps on the floor or sofa when tighnari doesn't want to be near him, he brings his new mate plants and books and gifts, cooks for him, tries to understand him, the strange things he says, but cyno is so deeply entrenched in sumeru's ways that it's difficult for him to see and understand tighnari's viewpoints.

still, he tries. he tries, and he tries, and things get worse.

they've gotten into yet another argument that cyno has failed to ameliorate, but rather than shout back, he.. deflates. cyno's broad shoulders sink, his scarlet gaze shifting away, and down. ]

I'm sorry.

[ lifting his hands, cyno scrubs at his face, runs his hands back through his pale hair, and sits himself on the arm of the sofa. ]

I don't.. I can't fix this. I can't be what you want. I'll.. take you back tomorrow. Maybe you can find someone who makes you happier. Someone who can please you.

[ because that's what it all comes down to, with cyno. tighnari says it isn't about him, that it isn't personal, but.. all cyno desperately wants is to please him, to be a good mate. ]

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Damaged goods? It's not about that, it's about you -

[ about tighnari's happiness, his fulfillment, he'd thought tighnari would be happy to be rid of him, for how miserable their time together has been, but even this, it seems, will not please him. but then.. ]

- wait, you..

[ cyno's stomach drops. immediately he's on his feet, approaching, his eyes wide, his heart pounding. ]

You're.. you're pregnant?

[ it's like a bucket of icewater dumped over his head. cyno's stomach clenches hard, his breath catching, both hands reaching out, toward tighnari's abdomen, but he hesitates, he doesn't want to touch tighnari, not when they've been arguing, not when he might be rebuked. he sounds genuinely hurt when he says: ]

You.. weren't going to tell me?

Of course I was going to tell you!

[ Eventually... it's not like it's something that could be hidden forever. But he's been nervous and scared. What if he lost them, what if...

And they're always fighting about something it was never a good time. ]

So it took, then..

[ cyno looks bewildered, flushed, nervous and.. more than a little.. excited. his scarlet eyes are shining, and while he's done his best not tough tighnari without permission, he can't help but reach forward to draw tighnari into his arms, holding him gently, pressing his face to tighnari's shoulder. ]

I'm sorry. I won't take you back. If we're having pups, or kits.. I couldn't possibly -

[ not that he'd wanted to take tighnari back, he was only trying to help him find happiness with someone other than him. ]

I never.. knew my parents. I wouldn't put that on my own.

[ Tighnari doesn't fight Cyno when the other pulls him into his arm. There's a slight tense but not as much as it could be at times. He's relieved and that's enough to make him complacent for the moment. He didn't want to end up with an alpha who was cruel. He still has relative freedom with Cyno... and he had been terrified that he would be separated from his children if he was returned.

He feels tears coming to his eyes and he raises his hands to cover his face. It's hormones, he's sure of it but it's still humiliating to start crying now. Over what exactly? He doesn't even know... and he doesn't trust himself to speak. ]

[ tighnari doesn't answer, and cyno isn't sure whether to take that as a good thing, or a bad thing. it's not an angry argument, which is good, but it's also nothing constructive, either.

and then tighnari is raising his hands to his face, and cyno pulls back, guilt lancing into his heart like an icy knife. ]

Tighnari.. [ he says, softly, lifting both hands to gently cradle his mate's face, smoothing his thumbs over tighnari's cheeks. ] .. it's going to be all right. I'm going to take care of us. Tell me how I can help.

[ Tighnari tries to hold back the tears as the other cradles his face and he slowly lowers his own hands. Despite his distrust of all alphas and the system he does know that Cyno tends to be honest and well... he's misguided and brainwashed still but... ]

I don't know... I don't want... I don't want them to be in this same messed up system.

[ He confesses and if the other won't give him back maybe he can push him to escape with him. ]

[ that answer ties a knot in cyno's stomach. he's not sure how to answer, what to say, how to fix this - but he had promised that he would, that he would take care of them, tighnari and their pups, and he means to stand by that. it would be a lie to say that some of what tighnari had tried to explain hasn't begun to sink in - it has. cyno has never seen omegas as beneath him, never considered them lesser, only that they have their place, as alphas have theirs, and every omega that cyno has ever met has seemed eager and more than willing to serve. until tighnari. slowly, he is beginning to understand. ]

.. I see.

[ his hands stay where they are, cradling tighnari's face, and cyno leans his head forward to touch their brows together, closing his eyes. ]

I want to help, but I don't know how. There's no way we would be permitted to be.. different. But I told you I'd protect and help you, and I meant it. I'll.. I'll figure something out.

Then why don't we leave?

[ Tighnari asks, his voice quiet but there's a slight tinge of desperation. They could leave Sumeru City. Surely there are other places that don't have the same system that oppresses omegas. Even if omegas seem to be eager to serve most omegas are also aware of the consequences of rebellion. Surely there must be some that are content but do they really have a choice?

There's no true freedom for omegas here. What if their children were omega?

Tighnari had just never cared about the consequences and had fought as loudly as he could. ]

There has to be better places...

Leave..?

[ the very idea makes cyno's gut clench up. leave everything behind? their lives here? everything they've ever known? that's.. dangerous. ]

You know what could happen if we do that. If they find us.

[ they could be dragged back, punished. they could be killed. their kits taken. their children killed. but what other choice do they have? tighnari is miserable here, and cyno had vowed to take care of him, to do whatever needs to be done to make him happy and safe, to be a good mate. he and tighnari might not have always gotten along well, but.. cyno is fond of him nonetheless, and certainly wouldn't want to see anything happen to him, or their growing pups. he's clearly wrestling with himself. after a moment, he exhales softly, and leans to touch their brows together. ]

.. all right.

[ It may be dangerous but being an omega with ideas and beliefs as his own has always been dangerous and would continue to be. Their children would always be in danger. Tighnari couldn't abandon his beliefs that things here are wrong. That they should be changed. But there is no changing them. He doesn't have the ability to fight directly anymore. There's too much at stake outside himself now. The idea of losing his children makes him feel like he's dying -- just the thought of it.

He's sure that Cyno wouldn't agree that he would push back more. But Cyno knows that Tighnari is well aware what would happen if they were caught. But is Cyno aware of what would happen if they stayed? If they at least tried ... there's a chance.

When the other agrees it comes as a shock. Tighnari would have never thought it would be that easy to convince Cyno. ]

What...? Really..?

Really.

[ cyno wouldn't tell an untruth, especially when it comes to something like this. something so pointedly serious. he'd promised tighnari that he would care for their family, and he means it.

pulling back, he smooths his hands along tighnari's arms, up to his shoulders, then cradles his face. ]

We'll find somewhere different. Somewhere better.

[ Tighnari scarcely knows what to do with the fact that Cyno would agree to it so easily. He sags a little, tears filling his eyes, overwhelmed and his hormones kind of are on the fritz after all. ]

We will.

[ They have to. ]

[ cyno gathers him up into his strong arms, cradling him close, pressing a kiss to the corner of tighnari's eye, then the other. ]

We will. You'll need to be strong. I know you can be.

[ tighnari's the strongest person he's ever met, willful and opinionated and as tenacious as a clinging barnacle. somehow, some way, they'll get through this. ]

The forest. We'll go to the forest.

[ He still finds the tears humiliating but Cyno's kisses aren't... unwelcome exactly. ]

I'm always strong.

[ Tighnari says, voice a little stronger now and at the other's decision he feels his heart soar a little. It would be no secret that he would like such an environment... he loves his plants and mushrooms already. ]

I've heard there's villages there that are different.

I know.

[ he's seen tighnari's strength, his unbreakable will. it will need to continue to be strong, if they are to get through this thing together. cyno's hands slip down tighnari's arms, taking his hands. ]

We'll prepare over the next few days, and leave at the end of the week.

[ they'll need plenty of food, a map, fast transportation, and cyno will need to machinate a way to cover their tracks, as best as he can. gods, this is really happening. ]

[ The end of the week... it's fast and yet so far away at the same time. There's plenty of time for Cyno to change his mind but Tighnari knows they can't be rash. There are kits to think of now. Tighnari lets out a shaky breath.

Where he would usually pull away from a movement like the alpha taking his hand, he allows it this time. ]

You are willing to leave everything? Your position...

[ cyno's hands tighten around tighnari's, and he pulls back to look into the omega's face, meeting his eyes. ]

.. it's you that I've devoted myself to, nothing and no one else. My mate. Our kits. You're all that matters.

[ keeping them happy, and safe.. it's all that cyno wants. ]

It’s hard for Tighnari to fathom any alpha doing something selfless like this, especially just for an omega. After all, omegas are more or less chattel to the likes of those in Cyno’s station.

“I don’t understand why when I’ve been nothing but awful to you.”

"Because it's the right thing to do. You're my mate. You're strong, and brave, and you're carrying my kits."

Kits he would lay down his life for, who he has only just learned of, yet he would give anything to them - for them. "So if this is what you want, what you need.. then I will give it to you."

It's still one of those things that's so difficult for Tighnari to comprehend. Why the other sticks by him and the fact he says it's not just about the kits... He sucks in a shaky breath.

Without thinking it through, he launches forward, arms wrapping around the other's neck and his lips pressing to Cyno's.

Tighnari is suddenly rushing forward, into his arms, and Cyno's mouth opens in mild shock - before suddenly his lips are covered by Tighnari's. They've kissed before of course, but.. only ever in heat and passion, while having sex, never any other time. Tighnari has never wanted to be held or kissed by him outside of the bedroom before, never accepted his gentler, more romantic advances, so this..

This is a surprise. But a sweet one. Cyno's arms close around Tighnari's middle, holding him tightly, as Cyno tilts his head to better slot their mouths together, kissing him hard, and deep.

Tighnari had never wanted anything from Cyno. Their situation wasn't something he'd been happy in, stuck in this. But now, the fact that Cyno is willing to leave everything, to take him somewhere where their children won't be subjected to such a harsh system... He won't have to fear one of them presenting as an omega and facing all the things he's faced in the city.

That's enough to finally bring down his defenses a bit, the affection and attraction that'd been growing but pushed deep down coming to the surface as he kisses him back, parting his lips to beckon him deeper. His body responds so quickly to his alpha, more quickly than usual, perhaps it's part the pregnancy... maybe it's that he's finally accepted him.

It feels so good to kiss him - to really kiss him, with heat and want, yes, but also with something deeper, a sweet affection and warmth. Something that Cyno has been craving, aching for for so long. He may not know the real Tighnari well, but.. Cyno trusts him yet still, feels as if he's known him far longer than he has.

So Cyno gathers him up, pulls him in close until their bodies are pressed flush together, his hands smoothing up Tighnari's back and down again. The kiss deepens, Cyno's lips parting, his tongue slipping into Tighnari's mouth to taste him, curling against his teeth with a low, soft rumble of pleasure.

Tighnari still has his misgivings, a part of him terrified that this is all a trick somehow that he'll wake up tomorrow even more trapped than he already is. But now... right now he's opened himself up a little to Cyno.

His arms tighten around the other, lips parted. He moans into the kiss, the way the other takes his mouth. He allows himself to lean into the feeling of being claimed by Cyno, the tongue questing and filling Tighnari with his alpha's taste, his scent spiking.

One of his arms drops down, caressing over Cyno's shoulder and downward until he's cupping the other's groin.

Tighnari's scent is sweet, and growing stronger - Cyno inhales it deeply, licking deep into his lover's mouth, pressing hard against him. Both hands travel lower, grasping at Tighnari's ass, squeezing, yanking their hips together, and when that warm hand slides against the front of his pants Cyno groans. He's already half-hard against Tighnari's palm.

Leaning forward, he scoops Tighnari up and into his arms by the backs of his thighs, carrying him the short distance to the sofa, where he presses him down into it, never breaking the kiss.

Tighnari gasps out when the other grabs his ass, the squeeze exquisite. His cunt tightens in response as he's pulled so close. He still can't completely explain what's come over him, that so quickly things could change so much but they had. Cyno still has a lot to prove to Tighnari for him to trust him completely but... they're getting there now.

His arms tighten around the other and his eyes open briefly as he's lowered onto the couch and Cyno presses over him. He lets his hands drag down the other's back as he breaks the kiss briefly to suck in a few breaths. "Mm," he hums before tilting his head instead of pressing back to his lips and instead nipping the other's jawline.

It feels like the tension between them has finally broken. They've shared a bed plenty of times, Tighnari has climbed onto his cock more than once since they came home, which has been a little.. confusing, for Cyno, considering how coldly he has responded in every other way. But they're absolutely sexually compatible, there can be no denying that. Especially now that the dam has broken, and Tighnari is finally softening up.

"I want you," Cyno breathes the words once the kiss breaks, and he drops his head to suck at Tighnari's throat, dragging teeth against his pulse as he grinds their hips together, his cock clearly hard through his pants. His hands slip up the front of Tighnari's shirt, pushing it higher, urging it over his head.

"Cyno…” Tighnari exhales, his head tilting back, submitting to the alpha as he feels the scrape of his teeth, leaving his skin tingling and a shiver going down his spine. He rocks his hips upward, feeling Cyno’s hard cock, big and hot through the fabric keeping their flesh from pressing together. He’s so wet, had he ever ached for an alpha, much less Cyno, like this when he wasn’t in heat before?

He shifts, lifting up as he helps get his shirt off, getting it out of the way and leaving his torso to bare. He presses his hand into the other’s hair, dragging him into another kiss.

So much skin for Cyno to touch - and yet still not enough. Tighnari drags him back into a kiss again, and he groans into it, breathing Tighnari in, sinking into their kiss. It felt so nice to be wanted, really wanted..

As they make their way to the couch, Cyno pulls at their clothing, tossing his own shirt away, shoving down Tighnari's pants and underclothes until his mate is fully nude and all but begging to be touched. Pressing Tighnari down into the comfortable cushions of the sofa, Cyno breaks their kiss and drags his mouth lower, trailing kisses down his lover's abdomen, and against his warm thighs.

Tighnari is breathless as they make it to the couch and his clothes had been discarded along the way leaving him bare for his mate. He moans softly as the soft cushions press behind him and Cyno starts to kiss over his body.

Tighnari's eyes stay steady on the other as he kisses over his stomach and he bites his lip when the other's mouth makes it to his thighs, shivering a little. He's utterly wet for his mate, and there's no heat to blame.

He wants Cyno.

It would be easy enough just to fuck Tighnari, to let them come together as nature intended, but Cyno wants to show him how much he's wanted, to show how desperately he's wanted to please his mate since the moment they met. It will take time for Cyno to unlearn everything he's been taught, but he does know one thing - he's devoted to Tighnari, fully and completely.

He shows it now, in the way his mouth travels hot over Tighnari's thigh, before he dips between the fox's legs, licking a deep, hot stripe along his cunt. He tastes wonderful, salty and tangy, and Cyno inhales him deeply as he begins to feast.

Tighnari whimpers as Cyno buries his face between his legs, tasting his wet heat. He arches into it. It feels easier than he would have thought to give into Cyno like this, to submit to him in this way but then again it had taken a long time to get here it felt.

He still worries that Cyno will back out, that they won't actually leave the city but the worries are smaller than the bond of trust that's started to form.

"Please," he pants, thighs tightening around the other's head.

That sweet, begging voice.. it nearly undoes him, and Cyno groans low against Tighnari's soft, perfect cunt, opening his mouth wide. He sucks at his swollen clit, and laves his tongue over his soft, puffy labia, tongue dipping briefly inside to taste him before he returns to teasing his clit, lapping at it like a thirsty dog.

The hands in his hair make him tense up sweetly, and Cyno uses two fingers to slip them into his mate's waiting pussy, pressing them deep, curling them against his sensitive g-spot.

Tighnari whimpers as the other's mouth undoes him. He arches his hips, nearly panting as he presses to the other's tongue.

"Cyno," Tighnari cries, tightening around the fingers when the press just right. He tugs at his hair harder. "Gonna come," he gasps. This kind of pleasure was possible without his heat?

That's just what Cyno wants, to feel his mate come apart, to give him all the love he can, to show him just how devoted his is to their omega, and to their family.

"Come for me then, habibi," he murmurs, his tongue still lashing against Tighnari's clit, sucking hard as his fingers sink in deep, trying to push his lover to the absolute brink.

There's no holding back, not that there's any reason to try, as he arches, into the other's fingers, his tongue feeling just perfect. "yes, cyno," he cries as his body clenches, his orgasm hitting him hard.

"Cyno," he moans again, the waves of pleasure felt like they went forever.

Cyno hums softly, still lapping at Tighnari's cunt as it quivers and pulses for him, eager through his orgasm, and Cyno grinds down against the sofa, his cock aching, but soon enough he slides his fingers free, pressing soft kisses to those puffy folds before he's moving back up Tighnari's body again. His hard cock presses against his lover's thigh as he dips his head to nuzzle at his jaw.

"I want you.. please."

Tighnari feels like jello as the pleasure subsides and the alpha crawls up his body after his fingers leave his cunt empty and despite the orgasm he’d just had he aches to be full of his alpha. The other’s cock is hot against his thigh and he mewls softly, reaching up to brush his fingers through his hair.

“Take me.”

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