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[ well. it's time to make his move. it's now or never, isn't it?

the last thing cyno wants is to ruin their friendship by expecting something more, but.. he has to shoot his shot, right? if tighnari feels differently, he'll let him down easy, and life will go on. they'll remain friends. still, that doesn't mean that cyno isn't incredibly nervous. he's never really done this before, not really, he doesn't have too much experience, doesn't know where to begin.

but he does know that his feelings for tighnari are very strong, and that.. and that he thinks that tighnari feels the same. there's a magnetic pull between them, an easy attraction, surely tighnari must feel it, too. it can't only be cyno. nevertheless, their time at the movie goes well, and their coffee afterward, and when they return to the dorm, cyno screws up his courage and goes for it. ]

Tighnari, I -

[ he stutters, clears his throat, stepping up behind him in the kitchen. ]

Can we talk?

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[ Tighnari holds to the other and he relaxes when they're on the bed. His legs feel like absolute jello and he nuzzles the other, his ears relaxed as his tail curls a bit against Cyno's leg. ]

I did trust you... it wasn't about trust, I promise.

[ tighnari feels a little more relaxed now, and cyno hums to encourage it, lifting both hands to cradle tighnari's face, to better look into his eyes. ]

What was it?

Tighnari exhales softly and he thinks maybe they can communicate a bit better about this now. Cyno is probably still angry and hurt but he’s calm and... Tighnari while exhausted isn’t as panicked as he had felt before. He meets the other’s gaze.

“I knew you wouldn’t stop being my friend or look down on me, Cyno. I knew you were safe and I could trust you but I’ve been in love with you and it wasn’t fair of me but I thought there was no way you would see us as compatible if you knew. You’d made it so clear what you liked and didn’t like and I didn’t have the parts you were looking for,” Tighnari murmurs softly. “There wouldn’t have been anything to hold against you if you had felt differently than you do. I just wanted to avoid not having hope that we could be together by getting an answer.”

Cyno looks crestfallen.

"I.. see," he says softly, his gaze flickering aside for a moment. "I hope I didn't say anything to hurt you. I didn't mean -" he starts, then frowns. "I don't care about your parts, Tighnari. It isn't what I expected, but.. "

Gently, he presses their foreheads together.

"It's you that I want."

“You didn’t hurt me, not really,” Tighnari says softly, pressing close to him, wrapping his arms back around him and tucking his face into the curve of the other’s neck and leaving soft kisses on his tender skin.

“I’m so lucky,” he says, feeling his eyes burning and he just buries his face more. “Most people...” most people aren’t Cyno.

“Please forgive me, Cyno.”

Tighnari tucks in close, and Cyno hums, closing his eyes, holding him close. He's dreamed about this for so long, about what it might be like to hold him, to feel his kisses, to learn the taste of his skin.. to think that Tighnari had felt the same for him is such a pleasant surprise.

"There's nothing to forgive," he says softly, before he's shuffling back a little on the bed so he can lie down, tugging Tighnari with him. "What most people think doesn't matter."

Tighnari allows himself a few tears but he doesn’t fall apart even though he knows he would be safe to fall apart in Cyno's arms. Instead, he holds to him as the older man lays back, moving with him and not quite relinquishing his hold on him. His tail swishes over Cyno’s hip.

“Thank you.”

That tail is warm and soft, and Cyno drops one hand to pet it, stroking the smooth fur with his fingers and palm in a way he hopes is comforting.

"You're welcome," he says softly, gently, against Tighnari's temple. "I love you."

The petting is very calming and Tighnari relaxes his hold on the other a bit more, exhausted.

“I’m going to be so sore tomorrow,” Tighnari laughs, nipping at the other’s jaw. He gives a little yawn.

"Ah, sorry.. was I too rough?"

He'd been a little, ah.. overzealous, that's for sure, it was difficult to help himself, once they'd gotten started. At last, Cyno tugs away his hoodie and the shirt beneath, then kicks his jeans the rest of the way off. "You should sleep in something more comfortable."

"No...!" Tighnari says quickly. "I like it rough sometimes...and I know you were pissed off and it's a good kind of sore."

So maybe pissed off Cyno is a little bit of a kink for him now. Even if maybe it shouldn't have been how their first time went, it's his own fault. He watches the other undressing and then shifts to pull off what remains of his own clothes.

"Then give me your hoodie."

"My hoodie?" Cyno looks a little puzzled, but he won't argue it - he snags his hoodie from where he'd dropped it, and hands it over, before he's settling down comfortably. "I guess we should.. talk, hmm?"

"It's comfortable," Tighnari says simply and pulls it over his head before settling beside him, pressing close to him and resting his head on his chest.

"Yeah. We... should."

Tighnari looks.. cute in his hoodie, all but swimming in it, and Cyno can't help but smile. Then he's cuddling in close, resting his head against his chest, and Cyno's heart feels full and warm. His arms slip around Tighnari's middle, and he hums, nuzzling between his tall ears.

"I guess.. um. Are we.. you know. Are we - a thing now? Or do you just want.."

You know. His dick.

Tighnari nearly purrs as the other holds him, nuzzles at him. His ears relaxed as he soaks in Cyno's body heat.

One ear does flick in irritation at the implication in that last part.

"I've wanted to be a thing with you for a long time, Cyno."

His amazing dick is just a big bonus.

"Okay. Okay.. good." A little sigh of relief, Cyno's shoulders relaxing as he closes his eyes. Tighnari's warm weight against him is a deep comfort. "That's what I want, too."

Tighnari relaxes more and he'd thought this was the case but it's still a relief for it to be put into words out loud. He buries his nose into the other's chest even though the hoodie has him surrounded by his scent too.

"We're okay."

Cyno can't get over just how cute Tighnari looks in his hoodie, like that.. it makes him smile. He's learned a lot today, but he and Tighnari are closer than ever now, which is the best that he could hope for.

"Yeah.. we're okay," he says, nudging his nose into Tighnari's hair. "I really like you, Nari."

Tighnari smiles, one ear flicking and he nuzzles Cyno happily. It almost doesn’t feel real. He’d been so terrified of this day, the day Cyno found out the truth. He’d been so sure it would ruin anything that could have been between them and would only lead to heartbreak. Yet, Cyno had just accepted him with basically no questions asked.

And... the sex had been amazing even if maybe it’s not how their first time together should have gone.

“I like you too, so much... Let’s sleep and... we can talk more tomorrow if there’s more you need to know or say...”

Cyno can only nod, to that. His arms around Tighnari tighten, pulling him in close as he curls up against him, resting his chin atop Tighnari's head, right between his ears. This had all been a bit more complicated than Cyno would have liked it to be, but.. he's happy. It all worked out. That's what matters.

".. mm. All right, let's get some sleep. 'Night, Tighnari."

Tighnari nods and he cuddles close to Cyno. He doesn't sleep completely peacefully, his nerves perhaps a little raw still. He feels wide awake before the sun is even up and nuzzles his face into Cyno, contemplating getting up to make breakfast for them but the soreness lends to him feeling a bit lazy.

Cyno is an early riser, and he stirs the moment the sun begins to creep through the window. Shifting against the bed, he pulls Tighnari close with one arm.

Wait.. Tighnari? Oh. Oh. Memories of the previous night begin to flood back - warm memories, painful memories. He turns onto his side, scooping Tighnari near, dipping his head to nuzzle along his jaw and throat.

".. morning."

Tighnari curls into Cyno even more when the other pulls him close. He yawns a little as he tilts his head.

"Morning... was thinking I should get up and make you some breakfast."

"Trying to spoil me?"

Cyno smiles, warm and lopsided, though after a moment his expression dims, one hand lifting to brush the hair from Tighnari's eyes.

".. we good?"

"Figured I owed you it," Tighnari jokes softly, sighing softly and just that one movement has his heart skipping a beat.

"Yeah, we are."